My very first Angel

Kurtis Ryan

July 19, 1991 Kurtis Ryan became an Angel. I was spotting and went to the Hospital scared out of my mind, he was my first pregnancy, looking back I can't believe how young and stupid I was. I didn't know about miscarriages or anything really I thought, you get pregnant and have a baby and are happy I never knew this could happen.

So when the spotting started , I went to the E.R. of course they just took their time with everything,, but finally did an ultra sound but didn't show me anything. The Dr. came in and and said he thought I had a ectopic pregnancy, and need emergency surgery, or I would die, So I agreed crying the whole time, my family didn't know how to help, but I think they tried.

When I woke up from the surgery they said good news, the baby is fine he's still hanging on, that he wasn't ectopic, but my Fallopian tubes we're twisted and one was filled with infection, and about to rupture, but they fixed it, and I should be fine now.

Later that day I started to cramp BAD, freaking out I called the nurse and the DR. but sadly it was too late my son was no longer alive, the surgery and the stress was too much for his fragile little body, and that was when Kurtis Ryan became my first Angel.

I miss him so much, I have never stop thinking of him, but time has healed my heart, I'll always be his mommy. Sadly it wasn't until, I lost Mina that my mom asked me if I had ever named "the baby" 17 years I waited to share him, my Kurtis Ryan